Studying, thinking, the second exam

Focusing on University

The following week I didn't have a lot to do except studying and going to lectures, because my friend wasn't there and I didn't always want to join the others for partying as I am not the big nightlife fan. I did some sports and tried to cook healthy stuff several times but in that kitchen it was simply not possible. So I ate at the cafeteria next to the faculty most of the times.

Studying in French was not something that went really fast - English was already quite exhausting when I was studying in Germany for my exams, but French was not that easy so I had to make even more efforts to remember things. I had to learn it almost by heart in order to remember it for the exam because I couldn't express myself as good as I'd like to. And as I usually learn more by understanding, it was quite hard for me to change that because I hate learning things totally by heart. And everyone who is studying, too, knows that the things you have to know for an exam are usually quite a lot. But as I didn't have so much to do except learning, I spent all my time for university and advanced quite good.

Anyway, I couldn't forget the scene at the airport and my boyfriend - even if he didn't know about it - became more jealous every day which was quite annoying. He wanted to Skype, write and know at any time of the day what I was doing and I was not willing to spend my whole day only with him because I wanted to put all my energy in the university. I started to recognize that I really missed my French friend while he was away - and he had bought another SIM card just to stay in contact with me, what was really, really cute. But it confused me even more because I tried to resist against all that so hard and I didn't want to break up with my boyfriend.

Welcome back - Emotional Confusion

The week passed by quickly and on Monday there was the exam, so I spent the whole weekend studying and doing some sports. On Monday, right after the exam I would go to the airport and pick up my friend, so I wasn't only excited because of the exam but also because of that. But first, I had to try to concentrate and finish the exam which was actually quite okay. With the strategy to write everything down I could remember I wrote a lot and finished just in time. I went to the cafeteria with my German friend to have something to eat and took the next bus to get into my car and go to Paris Orly. It was so annoying to drive because it was Monday afternoon and apparently everyone was at the highway in Paris. It was a bit too much for me but anyway, 2 hours later (which was about two times the normal duration) I arrived at the airport and went to arrivals to look for my friend. He wrote me where he was but I had no idea because I've never been to Orly before. Finally, I found him smoking a cigarette in front of the exit. We talked a bit about his stay in Algeria and actually I was happier than I wanted to be that he was back.

He asked me to pass by his cousin in Paris in order to bring him something and without knowing that I would regret that I agreed. He told me the address, I put it into my GPS and we went to the city centre of Paris. As it was just the time when most of the people finish work, it was a mess at the streets and I am sure that I didn't see some red lights or almost killed some tourists. I was completely overstrained. But finally, we arrived at his cousin and he told me to wait in the car. After five minutes he came back and we tried to find our way back to Amiens. It was not easy because there were accumulations everywhere and it took us hours to get home. In the meanwhile my boyfriend called me several times (he didn't know that I went to the airport) and wanted to Skype with me because he thought I was at home. I couldn't respond because I was driving but it caused me to have a bad conscience anyway. I would call him when I came home.

I enjoyed talking with my friend in the car, telling him what I did, hearing what he did. When we arrived at his house we decided to go having dinner later, but at first I had to go home to talk to my boyfriend shortly. I did so, it was very strange and I was sure he knew that I wanted to finish the call as fast as possible, so he was mad at me and went offline. I didn't know what to do, because I knew that actually he was right with being mad at me but I had to think about all that a bit longer. So I went to have dinner and came home a bit late. The next day I would have lectures, so I had to go to bed.

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