Live as a refugee

Hi  

Firstly  i want to introduce  my self 

My name is zakarya  and I'm  a syrian refugee in Turkey  

I have been here for  4 years  now  

My home got destroyed  back there in syria  

And  i lost my father and brother  because of the  war  

So  i  brought  my  family here  to save there lives 

I'm  responsible  for  10  person s now  ,  mom and  9 little brothers  

I was a university  student  in syria  "English  literature "  

But i couldn't  complete it  

The life in here  is so  bad  , you have to work all the time to be able to  live only  

It's  hard  to me  to do all that  by  myself  

Also i have  some helath problems  and i can't  work anymore  

Two  of my brothers are working now  , it's  wrong to make them work i know  the  are under 18 years and they should be at school now  

But i had no choice  i  had to  do that  

I signed  up  in this  web  site  to practice  my English because it's  hard to remember  everything with my situation  

But i figured out that  it's  a collge  and i should be a student  in it  to be able to do all that  

So  I'm  devastated  now  

The thing i wonder about is why  I'm  living  like this  

Why i don't  have a normal life  as the others  

Why  i had to leave everything  , to  lose  everything  eevn  my health  

And  i know i will  die soon if i  stayed  in this situation  

But  what can i do  ?  

I wish i had a normal live  and i wish i could complete  my studies  , that's  in my dreams  

The real life  i live  is to work everyday  to  bring  food for the family  

Even  some days we don't  have anything  to eat  but  

Nothing  we can do  

And that's  all  

I  wanted  to share  my experience  with you  

To  make you know that  whatever  happens  with you  with your life  is  nothing  comparing  with  other's life 

And  people wish  to live your  current  life  

And I'm sorry if there is  mistakes with my English 

Hope you are all have  the life you wish